Staying Behind: An Introduction

The inspiration behind this blog and everything else you need to know about me right now.

At the Glossier SoHo Flagship earlier this year.

About me

I am currently a sophomore in high school and my favorite thing to do right now is be a teenage girl. My favorite number is 16, it was always the age I chose to be when we played ‘family’ in elementary school and the age I’ve romanticized my entire life. Despite how much I sentimentalize being a teenager, my procrastination is unbelievably bad during the school year, especially during these last few months. I’m currently working on this blog in avoidance of brainstorming ideas for a children’s book about oil spills, which is part of my biology quarterly. Even the fact that it’s one of my last quarterlies of the year fails to give me any motivation. On nights when I don’t start my homework at 10 P.M, I’ve been rotating between learning nostalgic songs from Taylor Swift’s 1989 on my acoustic guitar and listening to music while searching for pins to add to my “Spring-Summer 2023” board on Pinterest. There might still be 16 days till the end of the school year, but my mind has already seeped into the haze of another summer story.

What “Staying Behind” Means to me

I want to stay behind and look at the life I’ve lived and what I’ve accomplished so it doesn’t slip away from me. I want to remember these moments while I can because one day they might end up like the other childhood memories that fade away and only remain in a photo album shoved into a closet. The world moves so fast that I am constantly moving onto the next thought, activity, or moment. Going back and looking at my Instagram posts isn’t satisfactory to me anymore. I need to capture more than an image. I need the time to capture emotions, interests, and ideas, even the ones I’ll be embarrassed about ten years from now. That is what “Staying Behind” means to me.